sooooo, tonight was different. i went out for a soul walk. Before I continue , maybe I should define that:
soulwalk (n): a walk that Kathy Jean-Joseph takes by herself with nothing but her phone. No music , no body, & phone just in case she's in an emergency because she is still a girl.
and i go on these walks to just get in touch with my soul ;) hence the name. when you're all alone and you just think was speaking? lol . So yeah, its just me and God on these walk. We talk. (not audibly , i'm just praying... for the ones who might not understand) and today was different, the wind was flowing and i just felt really good. i started to get some understanding about my future i couldn't get in my own house. when you around others alot, they clutter you brain with ideas that you know aren't right for you but you follow them because they sound right.... when you're by yourself you get in touch with your true feeelings and you get to make the right choices again. and that's waht i did. and it felt sooo good. i put out of my mind all the crap my mom decided she wanted to say about me and how i choose to use my time. ( she's not even around me enough to know what i like to do , let alone how i use my time ) sooo , i just needed to refresh my mind.
kinda like freeventing. with no one listening :) that's real prayer. not that fake stuff they show on tv.
my thoughts on love, came together. my thoughts on college, came together. my thoughts on my future career, came together.
& i think i broke my writer's block so look out for a new poem :)
signingofftillthenextime.
Kathy